I’m not sure why I’ve created this blog after
almost 50 years in the closet.
This is the first time Susie has been let out into the world. Actually the second time, to be accurate, after I finally plucked up the courage to take a late night/ early morning walk round the block a couple of weeks ago while my other half was away for a whole weekend. That was something I’ve been wanting to do more and more over the last year, and I felt scared and elated when I finally did it, after a couple of false starts when I bottled just outside the front door. Scary and liberating at the same time. In the quiet of the wee hours I was very conscious of the sound of my heels on the pavement.
Susie, as Susie, has only been in existence for a couple of weeks. She’s never really had a name before, or an identifiable personality separate from my mundane drab self. Now, it seems, she has, and is desperate to assert it. That’s all a bit scary as well.
This is the first time Susie has been let out into the world. Actually the second time, to be accurate, after I finally plucked up the courage to take a late night/ early morning walk round the block a couple of weeks ago while my other half was away for a whole weekend. That was something I’ve been wanting to do more and more over the last year, and I felt scared and elated when I finally did it, after a couple of false starts when I bottled just outside the front door. Scary and liberating at the same time. In the quiet of the wee hours I was very conscious of the sound of my heels on the pavement.
Susie, as Susie, has only been in existence for a couple of weeks. She’s never really had a name before, or an identifiable personality separate from my mundane drab self. Now, it seems, she has, and is desperate to assert it. That’s all a bit scary as well.
Hi Susie, Halle sent me a link to your blog, over content I'll get back to you later. Can you add to the blog a blogger gadget for bloggers to link and follow please. Just a suggestion, its easier than via email, atom, etc. well it is for fellow blogspot users. Abi xx
ReplyDeleteDone - I think, although I'm still working all this out by trial and error. Hopefully it'll work.
ReplyDeleteI love inaugural posts: so raw, so revealing. I grasp your state of mind here. I was also in my 50s when I decided to publicly express myself as my true female self. I was searching for both that self-realization and more female friends. We can sense that in your post here as well. I hope the years since have fulfilled you and the years ahead bring greater joy. :)
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