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Sunday, 19 July 2015

What am I doing here?

I’m not sure why I’ve created this blog after almost 50 years in the closet. 

This is the first time Susie has been let out into the world. Actually the second time, to be accurate, after I finally plucked up the courage to take a late night/ early morning walk round the block a couple of weeks ago while my other half was away for a whole weekend. That was  something I’ve been wanting to do more and more over the last year, and I felt scared and elated when I finally did it, after a couple of false starts when I bottled just outside the front door. Scary and liberating at the same time. In the quiet of the wee hours I was very conscious of the sound of my heels on the pavement.  

Susie, as Susie, has only been in existence for a couple of weeks. She’s never really had a name before, or an identifiable personality separate from my mundane drab self. Now, it seems, she has, and is desperate to assert it. That’s all a bit scary as well.